This Can’t be Life

I am not one to complain – ok I am – but I have been realizing that I am in a continued tornado that never ends. It keeps going around and around.

When it is that you get this fulfillment out of life? When does that time come? after you have had children maybe? brought your first home? Landed  your dream job?

I have been thinking about this for a long time. Am I cheating my self out of living a life full of adventures and promises of being happy? All because I am scared or content? I never thought I was content with life until now. Maybe I am not, I am just thinking too hard. Life is hard enough and when you add the stress of wanting to be successful at SOMETHING it is even harder.

I see the older adults around me and I wonder how was their life was at my age. Were they in California soaking up the sun? or in Texas eating bbq?

I’m not saying I want to travel to India or Paris. I just want to have experiences.  That can be accomplished in my own back yard. I could do this on my own or ask my boyfriend, but I really want someone who has the same vision I have. The Lord said 2 is better than 1.

Where do I start? I can’t just leave work – can’t afford to. I have to find away around my life as it is to have new experiences. It will happen!

Vision Board time!



It’s in Their Blood!

So last night I was at a friend’s house just browsing the internet on my phone. You know checking Facebook and Instagram. I got tired of doing that so I decided to check my email and then be done with it. After I checked my email I said to myself “Self”, “I wonder what kind of emails my bf are getting?”

I have his email logged in on my phone (don’t judge me). When I open the email all I see is a message from a girl on Craigslist. HMMMMMM….

Interesting right?! So I open the email and started to read the thread. There were things like:

I want to kiss it…
I love those thighs…
You so sexy…
blah blah blah…

I was like AWWWW OK “this where the bitch live huh” (it’s a saying my bf says haha). So me being me I took hella screen shots and sent them to his phone. He immediately calls and is like what is that? I said you know dude don’t play me! This went on for like 30 min.

When he gets to work he has his friend try to vouch for his character (I don’t want to hear the bullshit). His friend lies so why would I believe him?

He was holding on to this excuse that his friend has been using his phone and must be his messages. I just have a couple of questions:

How did your friend know your email address to use it?
Messages were sent at 9 last night when you were just getting home from eating with me. That was your friend too?

He tried to act like he did not know how the messages were getting to his email.

Look y’all. I feel as though once you are caught doing something you might as well go ahead and confess. He just kept lying. I’m not pissed about the fact that he did it. I’m more mad about the lie. When he asked me about my friend B (The guy from my I want the D post) I told him straight up.

Yep I have been texting him…
Sending pictures…
Yep I wanted to fuck him…

So we are past that now and he knows now I don’t want to be with B. But when I ask him why can’t he be honest with me like I am with him?

Men!!! Lying is in their blood!

Last Nights Debate… (what is your opinion?)

That debate was off the chain!!!

Romney pissed me off sooo bad with his rude butt. He kept talking over candy and my president. I don’t play that. We all know who that the clear winner was OBAMA!! Do not hate!Even though Romney is getting better with giving more details, but he still sucks booty as far as im concerned. He kept saying the same thing over and over and over. It’s like dude get your lie together before you get on stage and make of fool of you and the entire republican party. SMH Sad Day In America indeed.

What are your comments about the debate?

All The Way Turned Up

Morning morning morning good people. I have a feeling that today is going to be a really good day. I am ubber excited. I also have a quote for you:

“We never really grow up, we only learn how to act in public.”
This is me all the way haha.
Anywho, I was at home yesterday and I watched the tv show Scandal. If you don’t watch it your are missing out. This is the scoop: The president finally starts acting like he gives two f**ks about his wife and Oliva is thinking about leaving him alone. I guess she is tired of being the other woman. I think when the pastor died and his mistress could not be apart of the funeral she kind of thought about how her life would be and that she would always be on the back burner and never the presidents’ “partner”.
That should be something to watch for those woman who are the other woman. You deserve betternd. Until you believe it. You can not make anyone else believe it!